Let me start this off with an apology. I'm so sorry that I was terrible at upkeeping my blog and vlog this program. When I first started my program, I got so caught up in experiencing everything that my camera often times was left at home, and I was so drained that I never got around to writing it down. Then towards the summer, it was too hot to do anything, all my friends left me and I was too upset to go out and do things, then before I knew it my program was almost over and I was back to going and experiencing things myself and not through a camera lens.
My program is finally over. I am back in St. George, the place I have called my home for all my life, but it no longer feels like home. I went in to work my last shift on Tuesday and cried through my whole shift. I was glow, which was my favorite position and I picked roaming, which was my favorite zone. I got to roam the park, and I watched Wishes for the final time with Jake (my incredible boyfriend) by my side. I sobbed like a baby the entire time, I walked my final lap around the park, and you guessed it, I cried. I walked upon the Goodnight Kiss and lost it in front of the guest I was helping. The poor thing looked so confused, but I had to pull myself off stage because I knew another uncontrollable crying fit was going to overtake me. I watched Fantasmic on Wednesday and cried through the whole show, Thursday I boarded my plane with a raw throat because all I've done this week has cried. I can't believe it's really over.
I'm not going too in depth right now, because I'm still not emotionally prepared for this, but I wanted to let you all know that I'm still here and will most likely keep using this as a post program blog of sorts. I'll reminisce about my program and the sorts. I wish I had been better about updating the blog throughout my program, now it'll serve as a form of closure for me. I'll be back soon.
